january 8th 2009

so i've decided to hop on the party train and create my own blog. and no, i won't be trashing and thrashing local celebrities of the 321 and 407 alike, nor will i be keeping all of you updated on what i think is the latest "trend". this blog is simply and purely an outlet for me, not too personal an outlet, but still, because i think we all know the power of the internet, and what goes around, comes around, and around, and bites you in the ass that you sent to someone and it got posted all over the internet.... regardless, today is january 8th 2009, as i dated it for one reason, i plan on doing a 365 project, (thanks to "sea legz lexi" with her photography 365 project) meaning i'm going to write some form of poetry or a short story, or just a rant i suppose, each day until january 8th 2010. 2010, what an odd event to think of. it seems so far away, yet it really isn't. anyway, so here i am, rock me like a hurricane.
and i guess i'll start off with this i wrote today to kick off the 365:


"i'm not insinuating but.."

across a crowded room,
i seem to catch your eye.
casual party, a casual handshake,
casual observer, casual casualties,
you're a friend
of a friend
of a friend
and that's where it starts
but not where it ends




"jack kerouac knows what i mean"

up up and away
sashaying ever so quietly
easy said and easier done
when up and running nightly

pensively quixotic little gypsy,
a cut above belligerent when tipsy,
wave goodbye, another chapter to make,
and it's never a question of which road to take.

not the one on the right,
or the one on the left
or those rocks you climb over,
feeling bereft......

can't you see by now,
don't you know?
it's everything, everywhere,
you've ever wanted to go.




so there's two........
on another note,
this year is going to be a good year,
i have a new tattoo i got in charlotte, n.c.
with bk, chris, ashli, and robby.






a lot of you may laugh,
i know my mama did, but i have my reasons, i grew up here, it's not the best place i've been, but it's home. there's things that have happened here, and people i've met, that i will never ever forget, so why not a constant reminder of the good things i hold onto? while, i don't plan on living here for the rest of my life, at least i'll have that.

one more, this is mainly for myself as a reminder
RESOLUTION(noun)
(i didnt like number one)

2.	a resolve or determination: to make a firm resolution to do something.

3.	the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc.

4.	the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.

purpose is important, purpose is important.
pay for all my classes at bcc
get an A in psychology, communications, and world religions
embark upon a journey to enrich myself, intelligently
hold sight of my goals, and don't let my social life,
drinking, or drugs get in the way.
regaining faith, it's a battle.
start working out at the healthplex
get my job at new habit back
hold tight onto heather
start making my life exactly what i want it to be,
langerado 2009!
more roadtrips to:
st. augustine
new york city
georgia

gaining strength with friendships,
and last but not least,
going with the flow,
whatever will be,
will be.

that's all for today,
this will probably be one of the lengthiest.
i don't know if anyone will read this,
or how all this works,
but why not?